Resentment

Ever felt like throttling another person? Ever felt as though the person in front of you is the most unreasonable person on earth and you'd give anything to put her/him in her/his place?

I'm pretty sure that most of us have felt that ugly feeling of hatred and pure animosity taking a firm grip on ourselves. In the most unfortunate circumstances, we let it have free reign and secretly delight in publicly humiliating the other person. We are quick to justify our actions for doing so and yet many of those reasons we feed ourselves are merely excuses that serve to temporarily elevate our bruised ego.

Not many stop to think of the consequences of their actions during those times. We have a tendency to fail to see the disastrous effects it'll have on our relationship with the person(s) involved.

I, myself, am not an exception. I have failed time and again to rein in my temper. This is particularly so since I entered form 6. I have lost count of the many times I had screamed at her. Why? Why is it so difficult for me to control this hideous feeling of mine from resurfacing?

I console myself by constantly telling myself that it was her fault. It's never our fault is it?



We tell ourselves that it's fine to do so to a person who has been ostracised. After all, she's ostracised for a reason. So, it's really not our fault.




I work so hard to convince myself.